The Freaky Moment

I live by myself and I have found it neither to be financially viable nor healthy for my mental stability to live by myself for any further long length of time... and pretty soon I will get a flatmate. There are times I worry my habits are becoming detrimental to my own mental health.

Sure, there are all the quirky habits everyone has.

1.  Making and drinking your morning coffee in your underwear in the kitchen
2. Being completely absorbed in your own routine in whatever order you want to do it
3.  Not closing the bathroom door
4.  Shamefully leaving your place in a messy state just because you can…

But then there are the weird ones.

You know when you’re in that freaky zone of disarray. For me it’s laid back on the couch, leg over the backrest, coffee cup on the ground, toast crumbs on the plate balancing on my tummy, legs spread in stubby shorts with the undie/ groin exposed for all the world not to see.

I think to myself … What would I now do if a flatmate walked in from their day at work?  “Ahh.. excuse me for a moment. Nothing to see here… Go on, walk around me.. carry onto your bedroom...I will holler out when I have straightened myself out and I’m decent again. Sorry about all this “. *points to her ‘situation’ *

Do I need reprogramming?  I am becoming increasingly aware that I may have developed some antisocial habits and have become obsessed with To-Do Lists.  But they keep me balanced, I stay in-check, self-motivated and they give me something to do. Recently my friends chuckled when I told them I even have a list of things to do when I have nothing do. “It’s my ‘What to Do When I Have Nothing to Do’ list .. What’s wrong with that?” I asked as they snorted .. “Oh yeah, I see your point.. that is weird…” suddenly self-aware of her madness.

However, I am not alone in writing lists of things that make me happy. Along with Oprah Winfrey’s ‘Gratitude Journal’ (which I truthfully find both simultaneously nauseating and fascinating), there has been Gretchen Rubin’s  ‘The Happiness Project ‘ to keep me sane. Gretchen pursued happiness in her year-long journey by starting to write down things that make her happy. And that is exactly what I did.

Please tell me that you have your own freaky zone.

Budgie xo